Deliverance

I'm beginning
To understand what you meant
When you said
That all this was ending

I've gone on
To lose myself in my head
And convince myself
That I was transcending

But I saw her as deliverance from you
And now I see you as a miserable excuse
For love.

I'm beginning
To piece back together
All of the pieces of my teenage body
You said weren't enough

I'm beginning
To ask for forgiveness
Forgiveness from myself for thinking
I was in love

Your words set a fire in the Alps, and one in my skull
Your heart belongs in the South, and your head on my wall
My wall

(Pure, arrogant, impotent rage
Taking hold of my body, at such tender age
I've given what you want, but at every stage
You make it easy to hate
With the weight of the ocean
The shock of the sea
And the mountain
Over me.)

I'm beginning
To understand what you meant
I'm beginning
To understand

Run until you cannot speak
Till blood is running from your feet
And when your bones, they break anew,
I'll still be running after you
There will no deliverance
From me.